yes.
june is getting dangerously close and i think i should hurry up and get everything ready to move to a colder city where i can breathe in and breathe out with new worries and hushing sounds. but before that, i'm flying home again where i can always fall back with a thump on a pile of discarded expectations and rushed, life-changing conversations. at least the food is amazing.

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THE RULES:
1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. tags should write a journal of these facts
4. at the end post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged
Now I will proceed to completely disregard them <3

Lets get started:
1) I have a weird way of sitting when I'm ridding the bus. And sometimes I wish I could ride it all day and go in loops until the driver makes me get off.
2) I use too much toilet paper.
3) I hate having girly moments (i.e. craving chocolate, taking things personal, getting overly excited about stupidities, etc)
4) I'm a fabulous kisser.
5) I never liked the fact that ALF ate cats.
6) I hold onto stuff I shouldnt (like old love letters, pictures, ex boyfriends shirts, etc) just because I like remembering good times. but i look forward to the future knowing that's in the past.
7) I procrastinate more than anyone i've ever met.
8) I love passionately and I turn into an adorable fuzzy thing when I'm in love haha

You're all tagged!!!!!!

I went out to a near by coffee shop with a friend and my notebook full of secrets. We had tea and a few cigarettes. She wished me luck, I said my goodbyes. I stopped by the jewelry store cause I hate diamonds and pearls. It was cold and I balanced myself on the curve to scare jittery drivers. He called me and bought me a drink and I told him about my stupid struggles and why I didn't believe. But he doesn't know me and I want to be left alone. I know I'm beautiful. He drove me home and I intentionally left my notebook in the front seat. Its all behind me now. It rained for long minutes and you texted that you missed me and I erased it. Good night and I feel stupendous.

I'm moving soon.
I'm on the run cause I always lose what I love.
And I've been stepping out.

P.S. my therapist told me my problems were too overwhelming for him. I don't know what to make out of that.

i never wanted you.
i never wanted to.
i know i told you i did.
in front of witnesses.
and then we lived one week.
but now i get my kicks.
i know you never suspected.
because i never said "baby i was faking the whole time".
how could you ever guessed it,
with no acomplices.
but baby i was faking the whole time.
you know it isn't like me to be inflammatory.
but rather than let you think,
that i was so naive,
i'd have you believe i never wanted you.
i never wanted to.
you never had my heart.
my love was never true.
i know you never suspected.
because i never said "baby i was faking the whole time".
how could you ever guessed it,
with no acomplices.
baby i was faking the whole time.
you know we never connected.
you only thought we did.
baby i was faking the whole time.
baby i was faking the whole time.
baby i was faking the whole time...

New hair and new ink in a matter of days. I dont want to recognize myself by next week. Doing realism and mustaches on acrylics and oil pastels.